Blogging in 2001

Wednesday, January 3, 2001 // 12:15 a.m.

Well, I archived. This is probably the best I can do, since this is a personal page of mine and I don’t want a lot of anime influence in it (because I already have an anime pita).

Wednesday, January 3, 2001 // 10:49 a.m.

I wonder if I spend too much time on non-academic stuff. I wonder how I’ll perform this sem, after that really long Christmas vacation. I wonder, I wonder… And in the meantime, I spend too much time and money on anime and other pursuits, and not enough time with my parents and sister. Hmm…

Lolo-sama was able to save a lot of money since he cut down on anime last year. ^^”

But why am I ranting about anime here? I should be doing that on my other pita!

What else do I have on my mind, though? Maybe this cute pic that Wami posted on her pita… What lovely, yummy purple hair… ^.^~

Classes resume tomorrow for me, and I’m completely clueless as to what’s gonna come my way. Tests? Papers? Sleeping in class again? Agh! I just wish I could find some direction for my life!

Sunday, January 7, 2001 // 02:33 p.m.

Hao lolo-sama! Thank you for the kind words of comfort (hmm, age hairs?), but I think it was just a pre-back-to-school blues sort of thing. @o@

I went to a party last night, and just as I was about to chopstick another delicious mouthful of sotanghon courtesy of Mitsukake, something dropped onto my plate from the gazebo roof above my head. Down went the chopsticks, down went the plate on the ground, out came a scream–all because a lizard also wanted a taste of the sotanghon. ^.^~ Aiyah!

Wednesday, January 10, 2001 // 07:57 a.m.

It’s not that they’ve pushed me away; it’s that I’m always the one initiating contact (except for the rare few people who have been genuinely kind and caring). Frankly I don’t want that to be the case. I want this to be two-way. I want to be reassured that I’m also wanted as a friend by these people.

Not to mention I’ve tried to reach out, but from some people all I’ve felt are hedgehog spines, no matter how nice I am to them.

I don’t need them, and I don’t think they truly need me anyway. Do you think if I started to lurk, they’d say “Hey, you, post! We miss you!” I don’t think so. So why in the world am I still going to stick with them?

I try desperately to like people, that’s why.

Sunday, January 14, 2001 // 03:11 p.m.

I was watching this movie named her Alibi on HBO last night (really really late last night). The main female character, Nina, had to talk to the cook, named Consuelo, about something. All of a sudden this cook starts ranting, “Ikaw kasi layas nang layas, hindi mo tuloy alam na lahat ng tao dito muntik nang mamatay dahil sa niluto mo! Mabuti na lang hindi ako kumain…” etc., etc., etc.

Imagine my surprise at hearing my native language in a Hollywood movie starring Tom Selleck and William Daniels (Mr. Feeney of “Boy Meets World” fame).

Damn, though. Either the producers thought Tagalog would sound Spanish (the stereotypical Hispanic servants), or they used a stereotype of Filipinos as servants. >.<

Wednesday, January 24, 2001 // 09:37 p.m.
Elagda

It’s been a long time since I last wrote here… I kinda channeled all my ranting about the political situation into the blog that led you to this one, but now that it’s not really that high-profile, I’m blogging about it here.

Dammit, when will Erap stop? Gloria’s accession to the presidency is being questioned on the basis that he never said he was resigning, just “stepping down”. What an idiot. We’re dealing with semantics here.

Siguro, dapat itapon na yan sa Hawaii. Magsama sila ng multo ni Marcos.

Wednesday, January 31, 2001 // 11:15 a.m.

Ah! Exams galore again! @o@ I hate exams (who doesn’t?). Don’t get me wrong. I study hard for my exams, but what really kills me in waiting for my grade is the fact that I’m not sure if I’ll get a high grade. Call me obsessive-compulsive, call me perfectionist, but I get a kick out of getting high grades, not just passing the exam.

Back to studying. Reports say the teacher of this particular subject likes to ask questions that have really long mysterious answers. And if you don’t answer the way she wants you to answer, half the grade is slashed off on that particular question. ^^” *sniffle* *shudder*
Monday, February 5, 2001 // 09:37 p.m.
TheSpark.com Gender Test

Link above courtesy of Andrael. ^^”

Big news: I am a woman.

But! I am a woman near the middle range between man and woman. If a truly female female is hot-pink-verging-on-red and a truly male male is dark blue and middle ground is pure white, I am light pink.

And the pic they had representing me was a woman body in a business suit with a guy’s head. >.< Now isn’t that insulting? Does it mean I have the brain of a guy in the body of a woman? Grrr…

Go take the test for yerself. See if it works for you. I think I’ll go work out my masculine aggressive tendencies on that post over there.

[Thunder rolls and lightning crashes]

Friday, February 16, 2001 // 06:54 a.m.
Flipblogs

Just added myself to Flipblogs… I think I need something to juice me up so I can blog more here. ^_^

Saturday, February 17, 2001 // 06:57 p.m.

Hey, I archived for the first time in ages! ^_^ That makes me a lot happy… I’m trying to make this a separate weblog from Doctor Megumi’s Diary. I dunno, I think I can express so much more than just an overflow from that weblog.

Y’like? It’s Jennifer Lopez, one of my favorite celebrities (sometimes, I wish I were her, and then I start to think about her boyfriend Puff Daddy, and then I don’t really want to be her that much ^o^). I’m going to watch “The Wedding Planner” tonight, on VCD, so that pic up there is just a screen capture from aforementioned VCD. Hehehe.

Sunday, February 18, 2001 // 03:46 p.m.

Wow… I’m in SUCH a romantic mood right now as a result of watching “The Wedding Planner” last night. It kinda brings me back to my childhood fantasies of finally meeting my Prince Charming, love at first sight, happily ever after and all that (hmm… my Barbies are still in storage…). I am a dreamer, I know. Besides, I’m too young to dream of such things and it’s unlikely that something that picture-perfect is ever going to happen to me. *groan*

On another note, my grandmother is confined in the hospital. She had a heart attack late last night and my dad, who’s a doctor, had to get up and go to the hospital. He didn’t get a wink of sleep since then. ^o^

Sunday, February 18, 2001 // 04:16 p.m.
reveal your true Dark Name

Special thanks to Yugami for the above link (even though she doesn’t know I read her blog). According to that site, “Noelle Frances De Guzman, from this day forward you you will also be known as Profound Samurai”.

Profound Samurai. Hm. I like that. ^___^

Tuesday, February 20, 2001 // 10:50 p.m.

I really hate my teacher in Kasaysayan 111. Aside from the fact that he’s someone who pretends to be Godly but is in fact simply someone who makes an outward show of religiosity but in truth is a self-righteous contradiction, he also has a very narrow and closed mind when it comes to teaching and listening to students.

I feel I performed well in my report in his class today. I spoke only of published facts, I didn’t make anything up and didn’t even try to be creative with the material because he hates anything that approximates what he calls “Creative Writing” (meaning anything fiction-like).

My teacher just didn’t listen. He came into class with preconceived notions about my topic, was too deaf to hear what I was saying, and when I tried, honestly tried to explain myself further when he noted some holes in my report, he just wouldn’t stop talking. My classmates were already trying to defend my report by helping explain what they thought I was saying (which means I was able to get my point across to them). He said he wasn’t satisfied, and awarded me a grade of Conditional Failure (4.0 in the University of the Philippines grading system). That Just Hurt.

I know this particular teacher just gives grades of 4.0 all around, but when you take a look at the final grade, it doesn’t matter ’cause all of the students are awarded grades of 1.25 or higher (these are very high grades). And I know this particular teacher doesn’t really know much and doesn’t even read the papers submitted to him by his students. But it simply hurt to get a grade lower than 3.0 (passing/satisfactory). I’ve never gotten a grade below 2.5 (good).

I’ve slept the initial shock away. Time will tell whether or not I’ll eat my way out of depression. ^_^

A friend once said, “‘Pag masama ang loob, ikain, isulat, ipatay ng tao.”

Friday, February 23, 2001 // 10:39 p.m.

I moved all my images over to Virtue.nu, since Geocities stopped letting me reference my images from my webspace there. x.x I also created a new archives page.

Monday, February 26, 2001 // 09:03 p.m.

I never was the popular one in high school. In fact, I was considered the “buntot” (tail) of the one and only barkada (or group) in school, meaning I tagged along even when they didn’t want me to be there, which was all the time.

I was also the school nerd. I wore glasses from the time I was seven years old (I replaced them with contact lenses when I was fourteen), got braces when I was twelve, and had my head buried constantly in books (the lack of a group to hang with might have been one cause of my becoming a bookworm). Even in yearbooks, when others were labeled “kind, caring”, what was extolled about me was my “walking encyclopedia”-type knowledge and Best in Spelling awards, but never who I was, if I was “kind” or “caring”. And how would they know? They didn’t want to spend time with me. I cried a lot of tears about this. In a small school (like the one I was in), if you’re not part of thebarkada, you’re not part of anything, because the barkada was the entire high school population of about 20 students.

Things eventually improved so that I became part of the barkada in my third and fourth years of high school. I even went so far as to think that I was accepted on equal terms with them, and I didn’t mind if I were constantly ridiculed and contradicted.

Fast forward to three years from high school graduation. We’ve all sorta been apart from each other except for the occasional get-togethers at Christmastime or someone’s birthday. I noticed that while they were all complimenting each other on their thinness, I, with my non-supermodel type of body, was never told “Oh, you’re so thin!”, and other situations that really made me feel, well, different. One of these situations happened last Saturday night, when I attended my friend’s 18th birthday party.

The invitation had said “semi-formal”, so I basically had to run around the house looking for something to wear that these high school friends of mine had never seen before (yes, that is imperative!). I brought out a simple dress and didn’t wear much jewelry, but when I got to the party, all of my friends, save the celebrant, were in “smart casual”, something you’d wear clubbing at night. Not one of them was in the type of dress I was wearing. Drat it. I felt really out of place, overdressed with nowhere to go. Not to mention I felt like a fool.

At first, I felt annoyed with myself for not dressing down, but later on in the evening, I realized I was correctly dressed, and it was my friends who were underdressed. Then I got annoyed at them. Annoyed at them for not respecting the celebrant’s wish, and in the process making me feel not part of the gang, perhaps unintentionally, but it echoed my high school experiences.

It just hurt all over again.

Wednesday, February 28, 2001 // 09:40 a.m.
leelee.pitas.com

I feel better now than last Saturday. Last Sunday my family and I had this party for my aunt’s birthday, and my entire mother’s side of the family (excluding my grandmother and grandfather, who were in Bacolod) was here at home.

We had tons of food just lying around on the table. ^_^ It was funny, ‘coz my sister and I started to analyze our family gatherings, and food is always the central factor. Made us wonder if our psyche was somehow attached to food, and if we sought solace in food.

And then after all that psycho-analyzing, we just had ourselves some ice cream and steaks. FOOD.

Yum.

Saturday, March 3, 2001 // 12:22 p.m.

*groan*

Yes, today I shall relate yet another incident that happened in the past (though this is more recent, since it happened two years ago).

When I entered college, I set myself a rule that I’d never get involved in a romantic relationship, and I, as myself, never break my own rules. Two years ago I came very close to breaking that rule, when this particular guy started courting me.

At first, I thought he only wanted to be friends. When he invited me to the Beach House (a place in our university that sells a great barbecue), I gladly agreed. Then, when we got there and we were the only people in the place, I got very uneasy with the idea of sharing a table with only him. I’m not talking just a little bit queasy here. VERY UNEASY. I started perspiring, my stomach was doing flipflops every second, and I knew something was up. I don’t know, I think I have a radar about people who want to court me (more about that in a future post).

I just ran away from the guy. As in, literally. I couldn’t stand the feeling.

That’s not the end of it. I should have trusted those instincts that led me to run away from him, but I didn’t. I came begging back, kind of making up, and I was the first to initiate hand contact.

That led to hugs, kisses on the hand, on the forehead in the weeks that followed. God, I must have been a sight. Parading myself around with a guy whom I couldn’t even call a boyfriend because I’d sworn to myself I wouldn’t get involved. I was a walking contradiction in those times.

It was a short, four-week thing. The night our organization had a ball, he was my date. The thing was he tried to give me a ring. He insisted it meant nothing, but I knew better. I tried to deny to myself that I was being a hypocrite to my principles. Then he said he would like to kiss me.

Sure, I lasted the ball out without letting him kiss me, and I didn’t take the ring. The next day was a Monday, and I was able to talk with one of my friends who was really able to put a perspective on things for me, and I knew I had to break off whatever my relationship was with the guy.

When I told him, he protested, saying he really didn’t want a committment from me anyway, that he just wanted to love me. I knew I wouldn’t stand for that, so I left him. This happened in December.

I’m not saying I regret leaving him. I’m saying I regret not leaving him when we were at the Beach House, before things had developed to the point that he thought he had a hold on me. As a matter of fact, when I left him that December, I had a curious feeling of lightness, and I knew I was right.

February 14 of the next year, I received a red envelope. It was from him, blaming me for his depression, blaming me for rejecting him and making him feel miserable. I tore it up.

Two months later, he had another girlfriend and forgot about me completely.

And I still wish I’d never ever gone back to him that day at the Beach House.

Sunday, March 11, 2001 // 09:37 a.m.

cannot believe my little sister has managed to hog the computer all this week! I’ve always been the one told off. “Noelle, get off the computer NOW!”

This week, however, I haven’t been on the computer for a long time at all. My sister always manages to leave her emails alone in the middle of a reply in order to do something else, and I can’t use the computer because she’s supposedly using it. Thirty minutes later she still hasn’t gone back to her emails, I’m vegetating in front of the TV, and when she finally sits back down at the computer, the phone rings and she takes the call for yet another fifteen to twenty minutes.

When I do get my hands on the computer, when I’m about to dial-up to the internet, the phone rings and it’s for her! She talks for about thirty minutes or until I make loud obnoxious sounds from the computer that I need to use the phone line, thank you very much.

Wednesday, March 14, 2001 // 02:49 p.m.

A new layout for a new mood. I’m starting to think of my finals, since they’re in about two weeks, and I haven’t started studying yet! Shame, shame!

I’ve also begun to think of what I’ll do once I graduate from college next year. A lot of my friends are thinking of going to law school, but I never liked this Political Science-turned-prelaw-course anyway. I’m going to try to get another bachelor’s degree, this time in Journalism.

That is, if I ever finish this course.

Wednesday, March 14, 2001 // 08:19 p.m.

Wahaha! The computer is mine! It’s been mine the whole day, and my sister seems willing to let me have it for the rest of the night! Oh, computer, how I love thee. Oh, weblog, how I adore thee, with thy Corrs-inspired new layout!

Well, I think I’ve reached new boundaries of absurdity. Off I go…

Thursday, March 15, 2001 // 09:27 a.m.

Yo, check it out!
26% bitch

Friday, March 16, 2001 // 06:01 p.m.
I was listening to American Hi-fi’s “Flavor of the Week”

I heard a song on a station just a little while ago, and it sounded way better than anything I’ve heard over the past few months. Wanna know why? Read further…

I started listening to pop music when I was around 13 years old. Kinda overage to start listening to something for young people? Well, I was raised on classical music, and the radio was always tuned to the classical station.

All my friends were listening to pop music by then because it was the “in” thing to know the latest song (hmm, I really was sheltered), and when my parents didn’t say anything when I tried changing the station, I went ahead and tuned it to either 89.9 Magic or RX 93.1 (I saw the station number on a car sticker and decided to try it).

It was highly interesting for a while, because I have an ability to learn lyrics and sing along to a song even if I were only listening to it the first time. In recent years, however, the radio stations began to focus on one particular type of music which I soon found repetitive and dull (I’m talking about R&B and the new synth-driven music). I’m a melody-driven type of person. I don’t like songs that have no discernible melody or songs I can’t sing along to.

It was then that I discovered J-pop (or Japanese pop music) due to anime. It sounded way different, and more interesting than the standard fare on radio. I actually stopped listening to the radio and stopped keeping up with the latest tunes. When my sister raved about a particular new singer and I didn’t know who he was, I knew I’d lost touch with what most people considered radio reality.

Since then I’ve tried to listen to the radio again, because I know I’m regressing into my own little world and if I don’t do something, I might as well be considered autistic. I’ve only found a few songs suitable to my tastes. I just wish the radio would play something more interesting!

Saturday, March 17, 2001 // 11:47 p.m.

There is rape-slay scare here in Metro Manila, spurred by the discovery of a dead girl floating in a garbage-choked creek. She had been raped in her own car and then murdered, then thrown into the creek. The perpetrators even had the nerve to use her car after they killed her.

That girl who was discovered floating in the creek? She’s separated from me by less than six degrees of separation. She was the officemate of Nat R., one of my high school batchmates. It so happens they were texting each other on the night she was raped and killed. Nat had just texted her something and he was expecting her to reply, but she never did.

They only found out when she didn’t show up for work the following Monday.

And JM G. and Ian M., my other friends from high school, saw the body (it was already wrapped up in plastic) on their way to church that Sunday. Do you know where the body was dumped? In the creek right beside the house of a former schoolmate of mine. I used to pass by that place on my way to Sucat for parties at Alma A.’s place, which is why I found that scene very familiar when they showed it on the news.

You can imagine how close these events are to my house. Those rapist-killers operate within my vicinity. Nat warned me last night to be careful, because the perpetrators seemed to like fair-skinned girls, and the girl and myself have very similar coloring and facial features.

To be related so closely with the rape-slay events really creeps me out and makes me even more paranoid. My mother, who stopped reminding me of talking to strangers when I hit my teens, started doing so again last night before my sister and I went out with friends.

Stuff like this you don’t expect to happen to anyone you know.

Thursday, March 22, 2001 // 10:24 p.m.

In an exam-induced stupor this morning, I fell asleep in the car… and started dreaming about layouts. Yes, website layouts. x.x I’m mentally ill or something.

Sunday, March 25, 2001 // 08:16 a.m.
Lizard’s Asylum

I went to a birthday party last night (“again, Noelle?”) held by my friends LJ and Cy, two people I met at the AnimeXplosion 2000 (if you want to read my anime-related rants and raves about said party, just go to Doctor Megumi’s Diary; if not, just read about the party on this blog).

Anyway, I didn’t know anybody at that party except for the celebrants. Thank God I was able to bond with three people (JM, Chona, and Rianne) who also didn’t know anybody. Funny how people in the same boat can develop some sort of camaraderie.

After collecting each other’s cellphone numbers, I wonder what we’re gonna do with them, though.

Oh, yeah, there was liquor at the party. My parents told me, “If people start drinking alcoholic beverages, call us or text us, and we’ll bring you straight home.” Well, I feel kinda guilty about it because very early in the evening, San Miguel Beer and Gilbey’s with Lime was served, and then later on they had Tequila shots. Of course, me being the underage and value-laden girl I am, I didn’t drink. But then, I didn’t ask my parents to take me straight home. I wonder if I should tell them about the alcoholic beverages…

In case I forget, I call Cy my older brother because I adopted him. Hehe.

Sunday, March 25, 2001 // 09:37 p.m.

I am currently at my cousin’s house in tears over a PowerPoint presentation due tomorrow, because the files I was supposed to use weren’t shared over the network, and now his computer’s off. *wails*

[a few minutes later]
Oh thank God my aunt was able to persuade her mother-in-law to talk to her father-in-law who was stopping my cousin from keeping his computer on. *pants* I’ll be able to make my deadline.

Wednesday, March 28, 2001 // 12:16 a.m.

After spending the better part of tonight watching some bad movie on WOWOW, and then sporadically reading for an exam tomorrow, I came up with some horrid poetry. But oh well… I have nothing else to blog about, so…

Halo of blue cigarette smoke
Swirling like wraiths about your head
Ghost of my past returned
to stare through your eyes
Longing buried within
Burning through my soul to reach you
Drenched in the pouring rain
I see only the light of your cigarette
Snuffed out, like me.

Any reactions?

Friday, March 30, 2001 // 02:21 a.m.

*yawn* It’s been an extremely long week with plenty of exams. Thank God the last of my papers are to be passed *checks date* today. My only worry now is my grade point average. I hope it stays above 1.75! I need to maintain my average!

Saturday, March 31, 2001 // 04:28 a.m.

It’s been another sleepless night for me. I was just about ready to collapse yesterday morning, counting on getting a full night’s sleep, exhausted yet pleased with myself for finishing what I thought would be my last paper for the semester. I just had to meet up with my groupmates in another class to finalize our group paper. What I wasn’t counting on was that my idiotic groupmate (whom I had assigned to do our analysis) didn’t bother to make a decent paper. All my pet peeves were in that bundle of papers he handed me–spelling and grammatical errors, lack of depth in writing, and he even forgot to include the data for which we had painstakingly surveyed!

And yes, yesterday was the deadline. Thankfully we were able to secure an extension, so I have to submit the paper (which I rewrote all by myself) to my teacher this morning.

“Welcome to U.P. The Land of the Living Dead.” I’ve been zombified.

On a lighter note, Mela was talking about her day with her friends, and I was suddenly surprised to see my name there in her blog, since we’ve never met. That is the first time I’ve ever encountered my name as someone else’s name. It was a bit freaky. Call me paranoid, call me crazy, but I feel like I just lost a little bit of my uniqueness. ^_^ Hehe. I am crazy.

Anime Musings in 2001

Tuesday, January 2, 2001 12:09 a.m.

Belated Happy New Year to everyone! I was gone for about 3 days to escape the yearly smoke cover that blankets Metro Manila (due to firecrackers and fireworks @.@)… anyway, this page is back to its original design until I can figure out what new layout I want. ^_^

Tuesday, January 2, 2001 12:38 a.m.

Aha, lolo-sama, I have found your secret lair!

That’s all for tonight… I mean, today.

Tuesday, January 2, 2001 11:28 a.m.

Sekai no kakumei suru chikara o!

I’ve got Utena on the brain again, especially since the Anime Seamstress told me that she already has an Utena costume in stock, so I don’t have to wait for it to be made! Wai!

Hmm, AXN has started showing its anime in subtitles! Even Rurouni Kenshin is shown in Jap! Yay! Anyway, these don’t look like subtitled versions from the companies themselves. It looks like AXN did the subbing themselves–the sub doesn’t exactly synch with the dialogue.

Maybe they should have let the fans do it?

Tuesday, January 2, 2001 04:15 p.m.

Hahaha! I’m currently in my cousin’s house using his high speed cable net connection! WOOHOO!

And since I’m currently on an Okui Masami craze, I’m also downloading some mp3s of hers, particularly those from Akihabara Dennou Gumi. ^.^~

koishimasho nebarimasho!

Wednesday, January 3, 2001 10:56 a.m.

A cosplay website is going to link to SNAPSHOT! *bounces around genkily* All that hard work finally came in for something. ^_^

Friday, January 5, 2001 06:13 p.m.
niaiserie

Wai! Tin-sama! I simply loved “A Road Less Traveled” when I first read it, but now that you’ve finished it… ^.^~ Although I do think that it’s a bit sped up–the build-up took 11 chapters or such! But then that’s what revisions are for. I think I’ll have to read it again. @o@ I can’t remember the details any more. You certainly took your time… *smirk* *glomp*

Sunday, January 7, 2001 02:29 p.m.


I never realized how much I’d captured Megumi’s laugh until I cackled at the party last night (the party was for our gang of cosplayers at the AnimeXplosion 2000). Take that, Rurouni Kenshin Female Character Test! I am not Yumi! I am Megumi! OHOHOHOHOHOHO!

I got a nice toy mallet as a souvenir; I actually spent the latter part of last night chasing people around and malleting them. Of course I also got malleted, but what can I do? ^.^~

I just love going to parties involving anime fans.

Wednesday, January 10, 2001 08:05 a.m.
my Noelle pita

Just something to look at because I have no real anime musings for today. But a few months back, immediately after the AnimeXplosion 2000, I seriously considered creating a cosplay ML for Filipinos. However, when I was invited to the ML of the volunteers of said con, I thought I didn’t need to create a cosplay ML anymore.

What happened was that a cosplay ML and the volunteer ML are two different things. While the cosplay ML would be open membership and anyone could join (kinda like POML, only that the discussion would be restricted to cosplay topics), the volunteer ML was join-by-invite, and only those who participated in the cosplay activity at AnimeXplosion were invited (and even then, only erratically).

So, finally I’ve decided to put up the cosplay ML anyway. ^_^ It’s something I’ve dreamed about ever since I put on that so-called “costume” of mine. You can find it here at http://www.egroups.com/group/pinoy_cosplay

Wednesday, January 10, 2001 10:13 a.m.

Just a short note that I added Laurelgand to my pita link list. ^.^~ She’s my co-moderator of the WKFF.

Wednesday, January 10, 2001 02:02 p.m.
CLAMP Name Generator 

I tried that Name Generator out, although I have little to no experience about things CLAMP. My CLAMP name is Fujitaka Natsumi. I gotta figure out what it means, though… Hmm…

I hope it doesn’t mean “fat lazy cow”.

Here’s another link for anime costumes… ^_^ I just love the midis that play along with the page.
Susan de Venici’s Anime Costumes

Thursday, January 11, 2001 05:32 p.m.


Ne, Laurel, sorry we missed each other on AIM again! Anyway, I talked with Mitsukake–er, BlueJinnFlame to you, eheh–and he’s wondering why you haven’t replied to his emails. ^^” Blasted email servers. Mine is delayed too.

Yet another bishounen to lust after, ne?

Sunday, January 14, 2001 03:20 p.m.

my Noelle pita

*sigh* Nothing much to report on the anime front again. In related news, however, while I was watching WOWOW last night, I saw this movie called “Dreammaker”, and the lead male character looked VERY familiar–as if I’d seen him in a music video before. ^^” I looked at the credits at the end of the movie, and it turns out the lead male character was from DA PUMP, and the lead female character was from SPEED. Hehe. Calling Kuwami

I finally finished Pinoy Cosplay’s website. Check it out below:
Pinoy Cosplay

Tuesday, January 16, 2001 05:59 p.m.
Utena Character Selector
I took the Utena Character Selector Test, and I’m very happy with the results!

# 1 Utena
# 2 Wakaba
# 3 Ruka
# 4 Juri
# 5 Saionji
# 6 Miki
# 7 Touga
# 8 Nanami
# 9 Shiori
# 10 Tsuwabuki
# 11 Mikage
# 12 Kozue
# 13 Akio
# 14 Anthy

Yes! I knew it was meant to be! I was meant to be Utena! ^_^

And I’m picking up my Utena costume on Thursday.

On another note, I also took the Weiß Kreuz Character Selector Test, and here are my results:

# 1 Fujimiya Aya/Ran
# 2 Tsukiyono Omi
# 3 Hell
# 4 Hidaka Ken
# 5 Toto
# 6 Kudou Yohji
# 7 Naoe Nagi
# 8 Farfarello
# 9 Manx
# 10 Persia
# 11 Schoen
# 12 Neu
# 13 Brad Crawford
# 14 Schuldich

Does this mean Ran and I will be able to get along? Hmm… ^.^~

And it must be my lucky day with selectors because I’m matching all the characters I thought I’d match (or wanted to match with, in Ran’s case). These are my results from the Evangelion Character Selector Test:

# 1 Asuka Langley Sohryu
# 2 Kaworu Nagisa
# 3 Ryouji Kaji
# 4 Pen-Pen
# 5 Misato Katsuragi
# 6 Touji Suzuhara
# 7 Maya Ibuki
# 8 Ritsuko Akagi
# 9 Aoba Shigeru
# 10 Hikari Horaki
# 11 Makoto Hyuuga
# 12 Shinji Ikari
# 13 Kouzou Fuyutsuki
# 14 Gendou Ikari
# 15 Rei Ayanami

All right! Asuka-sama!

I’m done with character selectors for today… ^_^ Although it’s made me extremely genki now.

Wednesday, January 17, 2001 09:24 a.m.
Erap is Guilty

In a form of protest against what the “honorable” senator judges did last night, I’ve changed my layout a bit to echo my revolutionary sentiments. I sincerely believe that it is time for Erap Estrada to be removed from office. With a majority of the senator judges incapable of rendering an impartial judgment concerning this impeachment case, it seems impossible that Erap will be convicted any time soon.

It may be a small thing, but I believe that I should register my discontent with the way things are going in Philippine politics, and my contempt for the “honorable” senator-judges Coseteng, Enrile, Honasan, Jaworski, Ople, Oreta, J. Osmena, Revilla, Santiago, Sotto, and Tatad. These people should be hanging their heads in shame for what they have done in order to hamper justice! But instead there they are jumping around and rejoicing because they’ve helped this jueteng lord-and idiot-turned-president. Idiots, all of them.

For the latest breaking news and more information concerning this issue, go to The Philippine Star and The Philippine Daily Inquirer.

Thursday, January 18, 2001 08:57 p.m.

Revolutionary Girl Noelle reporting…

I was affected by groupthink yesterday, I think, when I suddenly had an impulse to join the rally at EDSA (without even informing my parents!!!). Most of my friends usually don’t join mobilizations, but all of us yesterday had one thing in mind: that Erap really needed to see that he had to resign.

And then all of us hit on the idea of joining the rally. Heheh. We joined our university’s delegation to EDSA and walked all the way there from Diliman! @o@ When we got there it was really just a peaceful demonstration that reached mass proportions in terms of the number of people present. The most scary part of yesterday was being confronted by the pro-Erap people at some point in our walk. They were giving us the finger! Good grief–we weren’t doing anything to them!

Anyway, even through all this mess, I still had the time to get my Utena costume, and it looks great! All I need now are a wig, a sword, and the shoes. ^_^

Friday, January 19, 2001 05:39 p.m.

In deep thoughts…

I really can’t ignore this political problem in the Philippines. I know this is supposed to be an anime blog, but if the situation worsens and the economy goes down, I won’t even be able to enjoy anime–I won’t be able to buy the merchandise because the prices would have gone up and the value of my money would be less. So I can’t turn a blind eye to my country. Anime may be my hobby, but my future depends on the resolution of this political problem.

Anyway, things here in Manila have taken a turn for the better. The military has defected to those who want Erap to resign, member by member Erap’s cabinet is resigning from his service, the Philippine peso is now 47.50 to a dollar (compared to about 55 to a dollar just yesterday), and I really feel that the people have united as one in a movement against Erap. The nation has matured; people have started thinking for themselves about the system and its rottenness. I think those now supporting Erap are supporting him on blind faith, or they’ve made a profit from him.

In any case, my family and I are praying for our country now. We’re also going to EDSA tonight to show our support.Sobra nang pahirap, patalsikin si Erap!

Saturday, January 20, 2001 01:51 a.m.

I’ve just come from the EDSA rally… @o@

It was, literally, a sea of people. Starkly different from my Wednesday experience, where there was still space left for people to breathe freely.

Oh, yes, thank you Daddy for being so enthusiastic about the whole rally thing.

Did I just forget to say “[insert sarcasm]”?

It was still worth it being there, of course. I know this is something big–this is history in the making for the Philippines. People will continue to make sacrifices in comfort and lifestyle to attend this rally as long as there’s something worth fighting for.

Saturday, January 20, 2001 12:11 p.m.

Confirmed reports say that Erap has resigned.

WOOHOO!!!

Thank God it’s over!

Well, it’s almost over. The resignation won’t take effect until Wednesday, January 24. And he hasn’t even signed a resignation letter. @o@ I wonder if we can be sure that his word is his bond.

Chief Justice Davide is now at the EDSA shrine making a speech. Better go listen….

Saturday, January 20, 2001 01:32 p.m.

Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo has just been sworn in as the 14th President of the Republic of the Philippines. Estrada is hiding behind the walls of Malacanang. The Philippines was featured on CNN and BBC.

I just love how things are working out. Maybe by Wednesday, or even earlier, I can put this website back to the way it was–or replace it with my Valentine’s layout. Hehe. ^.^~

Sunday, January 21, 2001 04:06 p.m.

I was with Kuwami and Minami at a party last night for our friend Uwa’s birthday, and the conversation turned to ghost stories. Kuwami-chan, your room is scary! Haunted by so many demons and who knows what else! No need for dust bunnies under the bed when you have the Bogeyman. Hehehe.

Tin, remind me never to spend a night at MM’s house either. ^.^~

No, I’m not scared of ghosts or demons. It’s just that I hate surprises. God protects me at all times from those evil forces, but I can’t help being human and jumpy.

Monday, January 22, 2001 09:00 a.m.

I’m blogging in secret from my university’s computer lab. Woohoo high speed!

Monday, January 22, 2001 07:21 p.m.

Thank you very much, Lolo-sama, for your kind compliment on this new layout. ^.^~ I know it’s a bit early for Valentine’s Day, but I just couldn’t resist the impulse any more! I’ve done and redone this layout on my comp, and I just knew it was time for a change (again ^^”).

Dewa, matta ne, minna! (I wonder if anyone reads this anyway…)

Tuesday, January 23, 2001 08:42 p.m.

What a scary picture I got in the mail today, courtesy of my lil sis! @o@

Anyway, I’m wondering whether or not to install a counter here… I’m getting really curious as to who (or how many) read my blog.

Or maybe I’ll just get disappointed. Ah, Sano, you’re my only hope!

Sanosuke: Oi, oi, kitsune-onna… don’t bet on it.
Me: But don’t you see? People will come to visit this Diary because you’re featured in it! OHOHOHOHOHOHO!
Sanosuke: *blink* *blink* You’re scary, fox-face.

Tuesday, January 23, 2001 08:51 p.m.

Short (and random) notes:

Tin, I know what you mean about exasperating professors. *sigh* I can’t believe I signed up for a particular professor’s history class–and I’m not learning anything from him, even though I can’t even force myself to daydream during his lectures, dammit, because his voice is so loud! And now he wants the whole class to prepare individual reports? Da hell?!?!

Ami-chan, your pictures were loading fine on my comp even before you moved them to Geocities. ^^” But my advice is: stick to Geocities, even though you have to use the FTP utility for now. My pics are loading fine, and they’re uploaded to Geocities. ^_^ Don’t move! Let’s all stay with Pitas!!!

Great, now I sound like a Globe ad.

“I should get a Pita.”
“Yeah, you should!”

Wednesday, January 24, 2001 09:34 p.m.
the secret diary of erap estrada

*points to link* Damn, this guy just doesn’t stop, does he? Typical bullheadedness from a drunkard… ^_^

Seriously, if you want to read more of my ranting on that topic, better go to my other pita.

Thursday, January 25, 2001 06:10 p.m.

WAAAAAAAAAH!!!!

Today, I went to a store in a local mall to buy a wig for my Utena costume… @o@ And it turns out that they’ve suddenly increased prices for wigs!

The costume just won’t really look accurate enough if I use my real hair (sprayed over with pink color), and since now the wig is out of the question (after I saw the price for a wig, I spent half of the money I brought to buy an Escaflowne audio CD), I think I’ll have to come up with an alternative.

could weave together my own wig, made of really thin yarn. ^^” If the Ruby Moon cosplayer at AnimeXplosion 2000 could do it, so can I!

And if anyone calls me Raggedy Ann, they’d better be prepared to face the tip of my Sword of Dios. ^.^~

[pause]

Ohohohohohohoho!

Sunday, January 28, 2001 08:15 a.m.

Kuso!

Some guy joined Pinoy Cosplay and then had the nerve to say on the mailing list:

By the way Ms. Noelle, was that you wearing yellow in the Anime Cosplay displayed in you website? Well my friend saw that and asked me to break your “NO right Click” javascript so he can download your pic. So i did. He thinks your cute, hes Dax by the way and hes beside me.I hope you dont mind us hacking our way to download the pics in the anime cosplay. well its not actually a hack…i just got my way around you script to disable it.Anyway this is beggining to be OT…

Baka yarou! If there’s anything I hate, it’s people taking what’s mine without asking me first. I mean, I could have even given them the larger version of my pic if they had just asked for it. But noooo… he just had to brag about his being a hacker.

Disciplinary action? Unsubscription and banning from Pinoy Cosplay. >.< That’ll teach him not to mess with me.

Sunday, January 28, 2001 10:51 p.m.

Hmm, Tin, from your description of what happened at the acquaintance party, I’m almost happy I didn’tgo. Almost. ^.^~ Although my sense of propriety is screaming right now. Various states of undress? Holy underwear, Batman!

On a side note, did any of my FinCom members show up? *sigh* The reason I really wonder about the party is I feel I abandoned my responsibility of shepherding my members around. I still don’t feel particularly comfortable leaving them alone. My obsessive-compulsiveness wants–demands–to be at every activity to make sure it goes well. @o@ We’ll just see at the G.A.

Ack! I just hope all that studying I did in place of going to the party kicks in tomorrow for my exam!

Natsuki-chan, you read my previous entry? ^.^~ I’m still kinda surprised people read this thing. ^^” Anyway, I managed to spill out not a few unkind words to that hacker-person, and I’m not sure I don’t regret saying them, ‘coz he completely deadpanned my red-hot accusations when he replied to my email. As in, he didn’t even respond to my verbal barbs, but instead kinda explained his position. Kinda. It still doesn’t change the fact that he and his friend should have asked me first before trying to take the pic, or they could have requested it from me. I’d even have been flattered that they liked my appearance enough to want a pic of me.

Well, he boasts because, naturally, hackers want to announce their handiwork. Ever wonder why some hackers place a kind of signature in their work pointing somewhat in their direction? It’s like something I once watched in the old Batman live-action series: the Riddler and/or Joker leave clues for Batty-boy and Birdy-boy (eep) because they want recognition for their crimes. Ne?

What the hell is it with these Batman-related thoughts?

*flap* *flap*

Monday, January 29, 2001 12:51 a.m.
kurozukin

Yet another interesting blog to read… ^_^ (note my fascination with my fellow Filipinos’ blogs?)

Friday, February 2, 2001 09:25 p.m.
exam rant on my other pita

Mhm, archived again. ^^” Wow, I never imagined this blog would grow this fast. Maybe I should think of redesigning for Valentine’s.

[pause]

Oh yeah… this is my Valentine’s Season blog design. Somehow, a particular Van and Hitomi pic beckoned to me. ^.^~ What can I say, Okita-kun? I have itchy webmaster hands!

Yet another pic courtesy of my imouto-chan. She gets all sorts of attachments in the mail. @o@ But this time, it’s a good pic! I swear! ^.^~

Oh, yeah, Kuwami-chan changed her blog address! ^.^~ But it still looks great, although now it features a girl’s image, instead of the usual Korean bish.

Saturday, February 3, 2001 09:04 p.m.
Culture Crash fan site

I got my issue of Culture Crash today, after a whole week of relentlessly searching for it. ^.^~ For those who don’t know, Culture Crash is a monthly mangazine (yup, you read that right–mangazine) here in the Philippines, with original manga stories by Filipino artists and writers on the staff.

Anyway, they had a special on the AnimeXplosion 2000, and I contributed my cosplay pics to them around late November of last year, I think. I got my pic hard copies back and was compensated with 500 pesos (around 10 U.S. dollars at that time) early last January.

When my pics were published in Culture Crash, I was so happy… even more so when my name was mentioned in “Special Thanks”. But then I spotted my face in the background of the omake special, right behind Bad Badtz Maru.

Oro?!?

Culture Crash does have a very nice way of conveying their appreciation… ^.^~ Thanks for the exposure, guys (especially to James Palabay, editor-in-chief)! Oh, and thanks for promoting Pinoy Cosplay!

Monday, February 5, 2001 09:03 a.m.
ryuuen’s blog

I was browsing aimlessly again when I stumbled across Ryuuen’s blog, which Coming Out linked to.

Oh, gosh, that story about her senior year in high school being ruined by one teacher who bore her a grudge… Itai naa… I feel for her tremendously. I mean, if that had happened to me, I wouldn’t know what to do either. I was an honor student back in high school, and to have been taken off any honor roster would have killed me. Ryuuen was taken off scholarship lists! @o@

Monday, February 5, 2001 08:33 p.m.

*sigh* Kuwami, today I really wished you were with me… This Korean guy approached me. Here’s the conversation:

Guy: Herf meh.
Me: Help you?
Guy: Ai wansh encher Yew Pee Yunivershee.
Me: ^^”

At a time like that, I really wished (a) you were with me, or (b) I were you and had your Korean-language expertise.

Anyway, after an exhausting foray into twenty questions and extensive help from a male friend of mine (no, Tin, this is not the dirt you were expecting ^.^~), we finally figured out that this guy wanted to enroll in University of the Philippines and wanted to know the entrance requirements. We had to direct him to the Registrar’s Office, which had relocated to a very secluded building far away from where we were currently. @o@

Damn it all… I wish I were a linguist.

Ami-chan, the layout’s looking good (even though it’s not Valentine-related)! ^-^ I think it’s kinda refreshing to see a non-Valentined blog. I think mine has become too mushy. Don’t get me wrong: Van and Hitomi are a perfect couple (who sadly did not end up together), but being all romantic and lover-ly is really not me. ^.^~ After Valentine’s Day this blog is going to have something, er, quite shocking to replace the current layout. You’llall see. OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!

Mm, I’m feeling more like my old foxy self.

Sano: Onna-baka.

X.X

Monday, February 5, 2001 09:21 p.m.
something new in my other pita

I think it’s best to put the results of a certain test in my other pita… it’s so embarrassing!
Tuesday, February 6, 2001 07:26 p.m.

I have a terrible headache, a fever, and I think I’m coming down with the flu. (Hmm, Selene-san, does that sound familiar?)

And I have exams coming up on Thursday and Friday. *wails*

Kenshin: Maa, maa…
Me: What are you doing in this blog?
Kenshin: Trying to help?
Me: I don’t want you, I want Sano! Or Tasuki! Or…
Kenshin: @o@
Me: …don’t misunderstand me, Ken-san, but you might catch the flu from me–I wouldn’t mind Sano or Tasuki catching it from me though.
Kenshin: Oro.
Me: OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO! *cough*

Wednesday, February 7, 2001 09:28 p.m.

Random notes to people:

Well, y’know, Tin, a lot of calories can be burned by cleaning house. ^^o Betcha that’s what your mom does instead of aerobics or exercise, ‘coz you kill two birds with one stone–you can lose weight and get the house clean. Hehehe.

I’ll wager that’s why Kenshin’s so thin and small as well.

Kenshin: Oro? But I don’t do the housework because I want to…
Me: Ohohoho, don’t worry, Ken-san, I’ll take good care of you.
Sano: That’s easy for you to say. In the meantime you’ve got me and Tasuki doing the housework for you.
Me: [to Sano] That’s the idea, chicken-brain.
Sano: Aren’t you taking that selector result a little too seriously? [grumble grumble]
[DocMegumi glares at Sano]
[DocMegumi whaps Sano with her Medicine Kit of Doom ™]

Stupid little skits I write. They never go the way I want them to.

Oh, by the way, Ami, I had another run-in with THE language barrier. This time it was in my Governments and Politics of Southeast Asia class. Our guest lecturer was Vietnamese. ^o^ When he was introduced, he was said to be fluent in three languages–Vietnamese, German, and English. But with his kind of accent, I think my classmates and I would have been better off if he had spoken in German. @o@

Thursday, February 8, 2001 01:23 p.m.
DUOBLOG

Wai~~ Wai~~ (those are “wai” with braids attached. ^.^~ And that “~” on the “^.^” is a tail…) I have to remember to add this blog to my list of blog links, but maybe after Valentine’s Day. Speaking of which, it’s only less than a week away! Ohohohohoho! I can’t wait to upload the new layout! @o@

Thursday, February 8, 2001 10:57 p.m.
DoctorMegumi.com

Yay! I finally got a new layout up and running for DoctorMegumi.com. Basically, it’s an umbrella page for all the websites I’ve worked on (a glorified links list, if I may say so ^.^~). It’s also something I’m proud of because it’s my first layout using DHTML. I know some people hate DHTML scrollers, but I really wanted to try it out. Go visit and see links to the sites I’m proud of! (and not so proud of…)

Saturday, February 10, 2001 01:15 p.m.
Doctor Megumi’s SNAPSHOT

I’m currently updating SNAPSHOT with a new layout and pics. ^_^ I integrated DoctorMegumi.com into the design.

By this afternoon, I’ll probably upload a new layout for Prescription. ^.^~

Saturday, February 10, 2001 07:10 p.m.
Dreams: A Corrs Page

OK, so I didn’t update Prescription… but I did manage to update my Corrs site for the first time in ages! ^.^~ So what if it’s not anime? I just love the Corrs!

Monday, February 12, 2001 06:13 p.m.
Doctor Megumi’s Prescription

I’ve updated Prescription, my ring tones website, with a new layout and some streamlining. ^_^

Wednesday, February 14, 2001 09:28 a.m.

Oyez! Oyez!
(Translation: Hear ye! Hear ye!)

Today is Valentine’s Day, and the air is thick with forwarded text messages, the scent of roses and chocolates, and right up there are Van and Hitomi looking like the perfect couple… *sigh*

And this marks the umpteenth year I’ve received nothing. Well, yes, last year I did receive something–a red envelope from a would-be/has-been suitor–but it turned out to be a hate letter instead of a love letter. ^.^~ It probably just goes to show I’m not ready for a romantic relationship.

That, or I’m simply saving myself for Sanosuke.

Sano: You wish, fur-nose.

Wednesday, March 14, 2001 10:40 a.m.

It’s a new layout, definitely. I’m not sure how it reflects my feelings right now, but it’s definitely dark and bloody (does it have to do with that time of the month?) and savage. I’m not a Tomoe lover, but the pic was just lying unused and I didn’t have any other pics, so there.

I’ve missed two months’ anime screenings already and will be missing the one this coming Saturday. I don’t really have that many regrets about it though because my once-raging interest in anime seems to be dying.

Thinking back to when I started liking anime, maybe subconsciously I drove myself towards it because then I’d be sharing the same interests with a lot of other people, and I wouldn’t be alone anymore. But now that I’ve found these companions, I don’t think I feel it’s quite adequate. Having one common interest is fine, but it gets boring after a while to talk only of one thing because you have nothing else in common.

Don’t get me wrong. I still love anime, but I don’t feel the urge to be submerged in it all the time. I will watch anime when it’s laid before me, but I don’t feel the need to look for it. I’m burned out, especially since now I’m shouldering FinCom responsibilities for an anime organization, and anime’s no longer fun for me. It’s turned out to be work, since I don’t like handling money matters. I wish I hadn’t taken it on; it’s become a thorn in my side, so to speak, and it causes me pain every time I try to move.

Two weeks ago I had a very vivid dream that I was meeting with the executive committee of said org, and to make a long story short, I told them I was quitting.

I wonder if I should do the same in real life?

Thursday, March 15, 2001 04:56 p.m.
TheSpark.com

I took the Bitch Test, and the results are posted elsewhere.

Which leads me to thinking about a certain group of cosplayers I know who label themselves The Bitch Council. Said BC are a formidable group of girls who I certainly cannot figure out. I’m not sure if they’re really being nice, or if there’s some venom lurking behind that pretty smile. Certainly I don’t think they like me all that much, but maybe I’m just being too sensitive to other people’s vibes.

Then again, I’m probably not bitch enough for them.

Friday, March 16, 2001 06:21 p.m.

Ne, Tin, fish oil is good! ^_^ Try steaming a tilapia in foil, and then dribble the juices that collect in the foil over rice. Yum! That’s fish oil! You don’t even need to buy food supplements. Fish fish fish fish fish! @o@ I’m such a fish freak. I love fish. I love it fried, steamed, boiled, roasted, and even raw with lots of wasabi and Kikkoman!

Oh, by the way, Lolo-sama‘s confused about which blog he should point to when replying to stuff I write about. Hehehe. Serves me right for maintaining another blog aside from this one.

Saturday, March 17, 2001 02:39 a.m.

Heavens… I just committed a little boo-boo. I found Meimi from KFFDisc on ICQ, so I started talking to her about blogs, thinking she was this Meimi. Turns out I had completely forgotten Tin‘s revelation to me that the Meimi with the meimi.pitas.com URL was from the CCS fandom, and wasn’t the same as the KFFDisc Meimi. Turns out the two do know each other anyway (it’s a small world), and at least they don’t hate each other or I’d want the whole earth to swallow me up in my embarrassment. Note to self: remember that people using assumed names over the internet don’t exactly always use unique names. ^.^~

Saturday, March 17, 2001 10:00 a.m.
The Kero Site

Lookie lookie! Kerochan has a Pita! ^_^ It’s so cute… but why is he trying to scare people away from the page? Watch that space, people. Sooner or later he’s bound to give some juicy tidbits away!

Monday, March 19, 2001 11:21 p.m.
Touga’s Pita

Touga used to be a regular at the #pinoy_otaku chatroom on irc.skyinet.net, but she no longer shows up, and it’s been a while since I’ve talked with her (oops, him… but biologically a “her”… it’s difficult to explain the #p_o chatroom’s propensity for gender ambiguity). The last time I was in #p_o, she was also there, but she left suddenly. Oh well. At least I can stalk her Pita. Hehe.

I’ve suddenly creeped myself out.

Tuesday, March 20, 2001 05:45 p.m.

Darn it! Virtue.nu is down! Now I have to find someplace else to store my Pita images! *growl*

Anyway, I’ve been going through Tin‘s list of blog links, and through the past two weeks I’ve seen many various reactions against the anti-yaoi sentiments expressed in other people’s webpages.

How do I feel about yaoi, personally? Well, I feel iffy writing it down here, knowing that someday soon someone’s going to rant about my non-yaoishness on his/her blog, and I’m just scared about that. People whose opinions are countered by other people are just scary when they want to defend what they believe in.

I’m not stopping anyone from liking yaoi, but my personal preference is that I don’t. I feel a certain uneasiness reading about two men falling in love with each other. But aside from that, I avoid yaoi because of my faith.

Other people who are of the same faith may have had different revelations from God, but my personal revelation has been that I shouldn’t condone homosexuality. That doesn’t mean I don’t treat homosexuals as humans; they still are people, and I dohave friends who are homosexuals. I just don’t approve of their lifestyle choice, but it’s not up to me to change them. It’s up to God to reveal His will to them, and up to them to change themselves if, and only if they’re willing.

[On a side note, someone wrote an essay about the “Open Your Mind, Open Your Heart” slogan that yaoi fans have adopted. I kinda feel that this implies that non-yaoi people like myself have closed minds and closed hearts (although I am fully aware that this might not be the intent of such a statement).]

Personally, I think the whole yaoi/anti-yaoi debate is a pointless deal. People have beliefs they stand by, and it’s useless to try to change that, because only they have the power to decide what they want. Maybe we shouldn’t take offense so readily at what the other side thinks (whichever side we’re on). We should try to be tolerant of other people’s beliefs. Hey, we’re all human, we’re all fallible. Why can’t we just get along?

Tuesday, March 20, 2001 11:34 p.m.

My ISP must be whacked or something because when I view this blog using another ISP, I’m able to load the images. x.x

Well, at least I don’t have to move my stuff again.

Thursday, March 22, 2001 06:43 a.m.

If anyone’s noticed, I’ve had a counter at the bottom of this page since, um, two to three days ago? So now I know who comes here… and they’re not a numerous bunch. Those who visited, thank you! Mwah!

Special thanks to people who’ve linked to me from their blogs:TinMikkaAndrael, and Remy.

Sunday, March 25, 2001 08:27 a.m.

Last night, I went to LJ and Cy-niisama’s joint birthday party. (I met these two at AnimeXplosion 2000; check out SNAPSHOT for pics of “Tasuki and she-who-brought-him-to-life”) Anyway, it wasn’t really an anime fan party, like most of the ones I went to last year. It was basically a party for their friends, and me thrown in for good measure. I didn’t know anyone, and I didn’t have much to talk about. Anyway there were also people there who didn’t know anybody (go to Noelle to read my rave about those people), so I had a pretty much even time there, not too bored, not too excited, not too genki (oh that would be scary).

Argh! Oniisama was smoking a cigarette when I left! What kind of impression did that leave on my parents? ^.^~ Oh well. If Tasuki were a real person and lived in this era, I’m sure he’d be smoking too, using his Tessen as a lighter. ^_____^

Wednesday, March 28, 2001 12:25 a.m.

Just a short entry for Tin, whom I haven’t seen lately and doesn’t even answer my text messages. x.x So you know, there’s awebring named “Pillow Book”. So there. ^_^

Friday, March 30, 2001 02:17 a.m.

I’m just about to go to sleep… but before I do, I’m still totally fascinated by my hits counter. I mean, someone’s been searching on Yahoo! and Google for “doctor+megumi+diary”. ^.^~ So, what would that mean? That would mean someone remotely knows about my little blog here and would like to see it? Wow… that bloats my ego a little bit more than it usually is.

Oh yeah, to whomever is looking for “sanosuke+megumi+kiss”, I’m sorry, but Sano and I kiss in private. ^.^~

Saturday, March 31, 2001 04:23 a.m.

Damn… the things one sees early in the morning. I don’t know if I’m hallucinating or what, since I haven’t had any sleep tonight (papers… damn you stupid groupmates!), but here’s what I saw in my search engine referrers list…

how+to+draw+naked+anime+characters

Oi. I may have posted some tantalizing stuff about my Ken layout and Sano, but I never said anything about that!

Oh yeah, I did threaten Sano once that if he didn’t stop yapping, I’d make a naked Sano layout. @o@

Sanosuke: See? It’s come back to haunt you. So ya better shut up and treat me right. *big smirk*
[DocMegumi balls her fist up and gives Sano the Futae no Kiwami–fox version]
Sanosuke: [flying away] Ororooooo!!!!